coffee. coffee and sleep. two of the most comfortable things in my world. coffee with a little bit of french vanilla creamer and as much sleep as my body wants. thank you Jesus, for coffee and sleep.

i feel empty. fill me up.

"i am a banana!"

God bless Don Hertzfeldt. seriously.

wOw... Jesus...

so, i havnt washed my hair since thursday and its getting sort of gross-like. dont worry, i will try to wash it tonight. maybe even blow-dry it all straight and whatever. maybe not. sometimes i just cant find a good enough reason to wash my hair. untill i wake up the next morning with my fresh, clear mind and realize exactly how discusting my hair really is. then its too late to wash it becuase i have to get going to work on about 30 minutes. sheesh. ah well. if i really cared enough then i would have washed it last night. i had time this weekend. i was just being lazy.

i am valuing my time with my family more and more these days. the times when i just get to be home are the best times for me. when i get to be home or in woodlake, my "home town" is when im truly the happiest. its just comfortable. nice.

and today is our *field trip* to chris' house.

kasey, if your reading this, give me a call. i cant get ahold of you and i want to talk to you or hang out or something. give me a call or whatver.

"... i cry out for mercy Lord, and you life me up again..." ~get down by audio a.

well yesterday i did one of the most difficul things i have ever done in my entire life. it wasnt even that it was difficult, it was just... weird. not even really scary becuase of that fact that God told me specificly to do it, but i guess *I* made it hard. *I* made myself struggle with the right words. *I* was a little scared. forgive me for my lack of faith, God. its ok. it turned out good. the thing that amazes me is that God already knew it was going to be like that. God already knew, even when i was practicing the words and deciding how it was going to be, God *KNEW* it was going to be exactly like it was. wOw. awesome.

its all good. i still have this incredible sense of peace and joy and faith. more than i have ever had before. im good.

so, there was a plethera of josh's at isaiahs house last night. it was pretty hilarious.

tonight i teach bible study. woo hoo.

God has been doing some kind of freaky stuff in my life. not really freaky, but more like working on my heart and its becoming more and more obvious everyday. its been kind of a trip. a lot of things i dont like, a lot of things are really cool. so, its been nice kind of kicking back and taking it easy. not a lot of running around. just taking it slow. thats when you can hear God best i believe. and im starting to teach wednesday night bible study again this wednesday. please keep me in prayer if you care.

the other day i shoved a safety pin through my ear and declared it a "chris costume". heather says its not a "chris costume", but heather really doesnt know chris so she has no right to judge what is or what isnt a "chris costume". either way, chris is awesome.

im so sick of all these new stupid love songs. all they do is distract your mind from more important things. pop music is so pathetic. mostly its these whiny girl pop singers that everyone is soooo into these days. those poor girls need to re-focus their lyric writing talents on something more beautiful.

so, just thought i would speak my mind a little bit.

so, yesterday i stayed home from work becuase i am sick. it was the first day i have ever stayed home from work on a work day and ive been working for like, 7 months. anyway, my body feels wore out and my mind feels weak. blah. i wish i could take another day off without being irresponsible. ah well. i'll be ok.

i did get a few things done yesterday though. got a couple of things ready for the mail and worked on some projects and stuff. i got a lot of thinking done, a lot of talking with God. i still have peace about what im about to do.

now i have to go on there and gather up my thirteen billion movies i rented so i can return them to blockbuster today on the way to work. sheesh. the price i pay for entertainment, and my clothes are falling apart around me.