i remember having the feeling somewhere around november that this would be a extremely eventful year for me, and i was right... it started off eventful and in a rush and over the course of this past year a lot of "bad" things have happened to me or have taken place in my life...

im a pessimist (frequent readers know this) but im somewhat of a recovering pessimist... a natural pessimist trying to change my ways or at least push the "bad" aside and try to see the good...

at the risk of sounding cheesy and sentimintal, here are some of the good things that have happened over the course of this past year...

matt
steven
michelle
timmy
various conversations with lovely people
a more sure sense of myself
the truth
love
tenacity
jeeps
eric
taking over the universe
snow
the back dock, by the bricks
marc
texas
missouri
corey
a deeper relationship and dependancy on God
a better grasp of my art
loosing about fifty eight bazillion pounds
thank you for smoking
phone conversations
the night sky in the valley
UFO's
the jasmine on the fence
coffee
the woods
the harris family
tree
forgivness
the adicts
paco
everything is illuminated
rachel
writing
confermation

those are in no particular order... and they are just a slight few.

well this is strange... what a year...

does my template work yet?

a nice shower in an actual house made me feel pretty good.

my hands look pretty discusting right now...

sorry this isnt a "deep" post. i'll try harder next time.

i dont write on here anymore... for the past few months ive been trying to figure out why i dont write on here anymore... i might have an answer...

its not that nothing is going on in my life... i think more stuff has happened to me in the past year than ever before... but thats just it. everything thats happened to me has been deeply personal, deeply moving and deeply character altering... things i dont feel like i need to be writing on here for the universe to see... im intorverted, we knew this...

so, anyway, thats it for now i guess. im not completly gone. just about half way gone.