Wednesday, September 29, 2004

last night i dreamed that the world was going to be covered with a flood, like the one in the days of noah. some guy had a fleet of boats that my family and i were allowed to go on, and i could take just a few precious things...

i took my bible, my portfolio and colored pencils, my journal and the quilt that my mom made me.

at the end of my dream, before i woke up, the world had been covered with 2 feet of water and i had gone out in some goloshes to see if my car would start. it was pretty wet in there becuase i had left the windows down.

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

so, suposidly there was this big, huge earthquake today around 10:15 or so while i was sitting in my pre-western history class... a 5.9 on the rictor scale and according to scientists, the world is going to end 60 days from today (november the 21st), ...

if the world really were ending 60 days from now, would i tell more people that Jesus loves them? would you? what would you do? that crossed my mind today when someone told me that scientists predict that the world is going to end 60 days from today...

i hung up on someone for the first time today... i feel sort of bad about it, but i REALLY didnt want to talk to her AT ALL. so, whatever.

*sigh* way to be a good witness of Jesus love, april... way to go...

Monday, September 27, 2004

wow...

Thursday, September 23, 2004

so, today my family and i shimmied on over to the coast...


san simeon... moon stone beach, i think...


the pier at william hearst memorial beach in san simeon...


a view from the pier...


some flowers growing on some stairs leading down to the beach...


me, looking down...


some seaweed caught in a tidepool at moon stone beach...


some cool rocks...


the little squirel who wanted some food...


cool rocks again, from a different angle...


some red pebbles i shaped like a heart on the beach...


me...

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

yesterday as i was walking out of my math class, towards the gallery in the math/art building, i heard a maniacle laugh from behind a tree and saw a pair of long, lanky legs striding towards me. i soon realized that it was chris. back from alaska, just on monday, he had come to the school to pay last semester tuition and to see mr. flores.

it was good to see chris. good times...

what a wonderful life...

Thursday, September 16, 2004

today was really awesome... i had a wonderful conversation with two very dear friends of mine and i feel released... free again...

i drove around woodlake this afternoon and discovered many wonderful things that i didnt realize about my hometown before... the park(s), the new housing developments, the carefully planned gardening in the front yards of middle and lower class homes... a wishing well... beautiful simplicity.

"Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free."
~Jim Morrison

i am free... peace be in your hearts...

Monday, September 13, 2004

frustrated... flustered... exhausted... frightened... burdened... yet peaceful... alive... exhilirated... hopeful... faithful and right here... today was ugly and beautiful. peace be in your hearts... i sincerely mean that.



"I see you've got your list out
Say your peace and get out
Yes I get the gist of it
but it's all right


Sorry that you feel that way
The only thing there is to say
Every silver lining's got a
Touch of grey


I will get by / I will get by
I will get by / I will survive

It's a lesson to me
The Ables and the Bakers and the C's
The ABC's we all must face
And try to keep a little grace


It's a lesson to me
The deltas and the east and the freeze
The ABC's we all think of
Try to give a little love..."

~insert from touch of grey by grateful dead

Saturday, September 11, 2004


Wednesday, September 08, 2004

there is a lady in my math class who has a crush on my instructor... it would not be so bad if she didnt flirt with him constantly all throughout the class.

its true... ive been going to bed before 10 and getting up at 7:00. its almost as if ive been going to bed earlier and waking up ealier than i used to...

my second day of work went well. im excited about my new job... im looking forward to what Gods going to do with me there...

thank YOU for your encouragement... i am blessed.


Tuesday, September 07, 2004

we took a trip up the mountain to moro rock and cresent meadows yesterday. its all about priorities... my math homework had to wait...











my frist day of work went well. im excited about it.

tim gorge is my hero.

Friday, September 03, 2004

this has been an awesome week... i spent more time than usual sitting around in the quad on campus and just watching people run around... it was weird becuase God brought some people into my days who i used to be friends with but hadnt seen in a long time and He blessed me with good conversation. buck seemed to be thrown back into the mix, wich i like becuase i have missed buck. i also spent some time talking to a kid (not a kid anymore) who we used to babysit years ago. it has been an awesome week...

my car boke down earlier this week, in case you hadnt picked that up by now... dad says something with the transmission isnt working. but, God provided me with a job this week also, so i now have the means to fix my car.

im really excited. im really excited about whats going on in my life, especially about what happened this week. it has just been a really great week...

now, does anyone read the dreams that i write down on here? i know they can be quite long... but they are really bizarre... i dont know where i come up with this stuff... by the way, they are totally open to interpratation. the one i had last night, i recognize a lot of stuff from things that happened or things that i saw or things that have flown through my brain this last week or two...but really... its just so weird...

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last night i dreamed i was some sort of a samuri... i was at the mall with a few freinds and it was very early in the morning time. like, 3:00 am. it was very dark and there was only a custodian there waxing the floors. my samuri friends and i made our way outside and realized we were on the side of a hill at the ocean. we could see the sky turning yellowish as the sun was beginning to come up.

my comrads and i began to feel sleepy, as we were on a long tiring quest of some sort and hadnt rested for days. so we all lay down on some grass by the ocean and took out our "mexico blankets" (those colorful woven blankets you can buy anywhere in mexico for pretty cheap) and went to sleep. i stayed awake for a while though, becuase i was the leader and i had to keep a look out.

as i lay there on the ground, my blanket covering my head, i peeked out through a hole and saw the sky turning a surreal purpilsih pink as the sun came up... and then, off in the near distance, i saw a rocket ship landing on a hill. as it slowly landed, i felt an uneasy feeling coming over my stomach. i watched as three robot like women jumped out of the rocket and began to make their way towards me and my sleeping comrades. after careful consideration, i thought it best to play possum, and quickly threw the blanket over my head and pretended to be asleep.

i could hear the footsteps of the robot girls aproaching us and as they got closer, they spoke in some strange robot dialect. they stoped at our camp and i knew they were talking about us. i then felt one of them lift the blanket from my head and poke at me with her hard, mechanical foot. starttled, i jumped up and yelled at the rest of my samuri friends to wake up immediatly. as fast as lightening, they were up (samuris are light sleepers, they have to be), swords drawn , and ready to defend themselves no matter what the battle.

the robot women were obviously looking for us, i could tell by the devious and pleased looks on their faces when they saw us and recognized us. one of them chuckled a bit and with a quick motion of her hand, drew a small sword and cut the throat of one of my comrades. imraged, i hurled myself forward onto her and began thrashing violently in hopes of destroying her in anyway possible.

the battle began. there were only about four of us samuris left to beat the three robot women. the battle moved somehow into the ocean. out of the corner of my eye, i could see them in the water, fighting eachother... my friends being cut up and slashed, but somehow they were winning. one by one the robot women were disarmed and beaten down.

i found myself standing on some sort of construction site then, walking along a plank in the air. there were planks everywhere around me, to get from one place to another. below me was the grassy ground beside the ocean where my exhausted samuri comrades had won the fight against the robot women. the sky was still purple-pink and there were whispy cream colored clouds floating lazely along above me.

then i heard a noise behind me. i jumped around to see another robot. this time, not quite a woman, not quite a man either... just a robot. the robot weilded a knife and was slowly walking towards me with a sly grin on its face. i braced myself, not ready for the attack. suddenly i heard a shout from behind me again. i turned slightely and saw a young man. i recognized this man, but i didnt know from where, his face was strangely familiar, though i wasnt sure if i knew him or not. he was standing there, holding up a sword. i felt as though he were on my side, so i turned back to the robot, who longed at me. i ducked and it fell on top of me and began to try to stab me through with its knife. weak from the previouse battle, i struggled emensly to doge the swinging knife. then it hit me. the knife. right through the left side of my chest, near the shoulder, but still dangerously near my heart. i screamed, airy and silent. but i could also hear the yell of my strange friend as he jumped forward and stabbed the robot three times in places i could not see. but i felt the weight of the robot being lifted off of me, and then i felt myself being lifted off the ground as well.

i must have passed out from the pain, becuase when i awoke, i was by the ocean beneith a high cliff. i was resting against my stranger friend who was patting some sort of wet stuff on my wound. i recognized it as aloe from an aloe vera plant that i had seen earlier. the cool wet plant soothed my aching wound. the ocean waves lapped up gently against the beach and off in the distance, to my right, i saw a sort of colony. built on the water on docks. there were several small buildings and wooden dock pathways that winded around them. i saw my samuri friends walking around, tending to different things around the small colony. i glanced up at my friend, the one who had saved me and was now tending to me and still did not recognize him. he smiled a little at me and told me i would be alright. his smile seemed to sooth my pain just as the aloe did and before i knew it i was walking along the boardwalks in the colony with my friend beside me.

everyone recognized me and seemed to have a reverance for me as one would have for a leader. all the people on the dock colony were bruised and battered, as if they too had partaken in the battle aginst the robot invaders. i smiled at each one as i strolled by. my strange friend by my side felt comfortable. although i didnt know who he was, he was a comfort to me. im not sure, but i think we were holding hands.

as i strolled around observing the place, in the distance i saw a disturbance in the water. we walked quickly to the side of the farthest pier and i saw submarine type ships rising out of the water. on top of one of them i recognized one of the samuri whp had fought bravely beside me earlier. beside him, there stood a robot. i did not understand what was happening, as the submarine ships got closer to the dock. all at once, at least three dozen robots emerged out of the ships and stormed the dock colony. my friend and i were suprised and when the one who had fought beside me earler, stepped off his submarine along with the robot, i asked him what the meaning of all this was, to wich he calmly replyed, he and the robots were taking over. he had been working for the robots all along acting as their spy.

at the end of the dream, i just remember sitting beside my nameless, stranger friend, the both of us submitted to the will of the robots on the one who betrayed me before. i remember we were tied up, but together. and i also remember knowing that the wheels in our heads were spinning... trying to figure out a way to overthrow the new rule of the dock colony. all around us the robots forced people to do work and labor... pushing and hitting them... one of them even shot one of the people. i remember watching it and knowing, that we would find a way to restore peace and tranquility to the dock colony.

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

Garden State... beautiful movie... there was at least one scene that i thought totally un-necissary, and lots of profanity, but a really good movie i thought. inspiring. my mom rocks for giving me the money to go see it.

one of the best parts of the show today was the beginning previews when they showed the preview for wes andersons new film, The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou. being the wes anderson dork that i am, i cracked up during the preview.

i really enjoy watching and listening to bono... he is at the republican convention and he had an interview on The O'Riley Factor tonight... shame on you if you missed it... you can make up for it by reading bono's two part commencment speech on relevant.com...

i hope you all are good... peace be in your hearts...