" we are sorry... the number you have dialed has been disconnected, or is no longer in service. please hang up, check the number and dial again..."

dangit.

so i had lunch with chris and then took a drive up to the mountains. i got up there about 40000 ft when my car over heated. i pulled over the side of the road to let it cool and as i was sitting there in my car several things happened.... my head ache got worse, i realized that my bum hurt from sitting so long, i was sick of driving, and i got lonely. so i turned around and drove home.

well, such is life.

bono describes my currents feelings best...

" If you twist and turn away
If you tear yourself in two again
If I could, yes I would
If I could, I would
Let it go
Surrender
Dislocate


If I could throw this
Lifeless lifeline to the wind
Leave this heart of clay
See you walk, walk away
Into the night
And through the rain
Into the half-light
And through the flame


If I could through myself
Set your spirit free
I'd lead your heart away
See you break, break away
Into the light
And to the day


To let it go
And so to fade away
To let it go
And so fade away


I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
Wide awake
I'm not sleeping
Oh, no, no, no


If you should ask then maybe they'd
Tell you what I would say
True colors fly in blue and black
Bruised silken sky and burning flag
Colors crash, collide in blood shot eyes


If I could, you know I would
If I could, I would
Let it go...


This desperation
Dislocation
Separation
Condemnation
Revelation
In temptation
Isolation
Desolation
Let it go


And so fade away
To let it go
And so fade away
To let it go
And so to fade away


I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
Wide awake
I'm not sleeping
Oh, no, no, no "

did i mention that i added some new art?



" well, you *look* good..."

theres this guy who has been coming into watsons since ive been working there and his name is gabe. he is sort of funny little guy. maybe in his mid 20's or so... not very attractive (to me anyway), but not realy ugly. he is a nice guy, good manners, polite friendly attitude, a over all nice guy. well, it seemed to me like every time he came in he just sort of smiles at me and asks how im doing and acts very nice... i sort of try to avoid him, honestly, becuase he acts nice specificly to me. not so much heather, not so much mark or kim, but to me. well, yesterday he came in and i was behind the counter making food and mark was taking his order. i was feeling rather polite at the moment so i looked up and said, " hello gabe..." and he looked up with this huge smile on his face and said "hello april!". i continued with, "how are you today?" and he says, "im good. how are you?" and i reply, "oh, im alright..." to wich HE replied, "well, you *look* good."

i looked the same as i do almost everyday. black clothes, hair in a pony tail, doing the same thing i do everyday. i wonder if he walked away and slapped himself in the forhead and said sometime to himself like, "doh! i cant belive i just said that outloud! " or something more to effect of... " you *look* good... geeze, im such an idiot... thats all i could think of to say... idiot, idiot, IDIOT!". hahahaha....

some people are just nice though. maybe he doesnt have a crush on me.

so, travis m "hooked" me up. seriously, he did. if you want to get "hooked up" with someone, let travis know. im sure he has connections with that certain person and can "hook" you up. im living proof.

keep me in prayer as i have currently been witnessing to a former mormon-now-open-to-christianity friend of mine.

they are opening up an american eagle store on the mall to replace the express store. thats all that we need in this world. another place for the kids to shop so they will look good. kids make me so sick. with all their clothes and their teenage politics and what-not. they need to get over themselves. i know that adults can act like this too, but at least the majority of adults are more mature about it. whatever. the way i see it is that kids should not be concerned about picking out their own clothes so they will look good, shopping for themselves and whatever... they should be out playing with toys or in the dirt and stuff. damn punk kids.

so, have an awesome weekend. peace be in your hearts and join our anti-sun coalition when we get it up and running.

umm... wOw...

hey! i washed my hair tonight. that makes twice in the same week. i washed it in account of getting coffee tomorrow afternoon with julia and mara and nancy. yay for coffee.

the other day i found the theme for the movie "raising arizona". it just about killed me. if'n you havnt seen that movie, go find some money, get into your car and drive down to the video store and rent it right now. what are you waiting for? go!

hmm... i got a little bit of gasoline a while ago for my car. the cheapest i can find is 2.13 at the texaco in exeter. thats pretty good compaired to 2.17 almost anywhere else. if'n you know of any place cheaper, let me know.

i think im suffering from cheeze-it withdraw. i havnt had any cheeze-its for a long time. and i keep glancing down to the empty box in the trash next to my desk. *sigh* one more day untill i get paid and can buy a box of cheeze-its.

so, i was blow drying my hair and thinking of random things and i realized that travis (javajungletravis) looks almost *exactly* like one of my little characters that i used to draw named Troy. no joke. almost exactly like him. blue eyes, blondish hair, same build, same hair style, same style... the only difference is that travis wears glasses and troy doesnt. no joke. honestly. weird, huh? heather, isnt that true? travis and troy? weird. i'll try to find a picture of troy to scan and show you all... anyway, that just blew my mind when i realized that. heh...


You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
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Emotional Wreck. You are extremely emotional. You feel contentment moreso than happiness and your emotional lows are to the extreme. You need to cheer up and start enjoying your life. Where
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well, i ended up not going to show on saturday night. i stayed home and downloaded music and stuff. i have sucsesfully managed to get quite an awesome little collection of punk rock music. not the sucky kind, mind you, but the good old kind. the kind that doesnt suck. i guess sucky is relative though... whatever...

so, my boos asked me to be there at 8:30 now so that i'll have a little more time to get things together in the kithcen and make muffins or whatever. that means i have to wake up 1/2 an hour earlier, wich is a long time for me. i think im going to give up late night movie watching for a while and start going to bed at around 10:00 or 10:30 so that i can get the sleep i need. Mmm... sleepy goodness...

i got a lot of work done in the garden this weekend. i love it. thats the thing i love most about living in the country. being able to work outside in the yard in the country is just awesome. its relaxing and fulfilling. if i have a choice, i want to always live in the country... after i get my damn credit card payed off, i think i should start saving for to buy a house. a house in the country. somewhere near here.

its really a nice day outside. peace be in your hearts...

i added some new art the web site...


let me know what you think or else i'll hunt you down and eat your larenex.

so, punk rock show tonight. horray.

thats it... ive put a lot of thought into the matter and im going to ask travis (java jungle travis) if'n he would go to church with me sometime. hmm... im going to do it. maybe next sunday, since i havn to go to the presbyterian church tomorrow. im pretty excited about that though, becuase we dont have to be there untill like, 11:30. so we can sleep in when i normally dont get to sleep in on a sunday. horray for sleep.

i added a few random things here...

random stuff...

" Work like you don't need the money. Love like you've never been hurt. Dance like no one is watching. " geeze, how optomistic. its all so wonderful and everything...

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so, yesterday i went to my boss and i said, "hey, remember when i asked you if'n i could have thursday off early?" and shes like, "yeahhhh...." and i go..." well, i was wondering if'n it would be o.k. if'n i just go ahead and work all day on thursday and just take friday off..." thats when she sort of looked away and stared off into space for what seemed like the longest time, and then she said...

"welllllllll.................................................. i think it might be better if........................... you took off early thursday and went ahead and also took friday off."

wOw.

so folks, it looks as if yours truly (me) is driving to anehiem in her car to see flogging molly at the house of blues on april 10.

advice please... so, theres this show down in anehiem that im thinking of going to. for real, im 21 years old, i have an awesome running car, i have some money and i have nothing to tie me down... nothing except for my job. see, the show is on a thrusday night at 8:00... i get off of work at 4:00. i can make it to anehiem right on time for the show ( acording to mapquest.com, it would take 3 & 1/2 hours from visalia to anehiem ), but then theres the factor of work on friday... it wouldnt be such a big deal if'n i hadnt already asked for the WHOLE next week off of work to go to mexico with my high schoolers... i COULD go to show thursday night and drive back home and be home on friday morning at like, 3:00 and then go to work on friday untill 4:00 and then go to mexico the next morning for a week of hard core ministry... or what im THINKING of doing is taking off thursday night for the show and asking for friday off, as well as the whole next week that i already have off. what to do, what to do... the question is, would i be majorly pushing it with my boss?

here are some facts... i have been working there for a little over a year. my boss and i are pretty good friends, we get along really well and stuff. she really trusts me as an employee, enough to put me in the "manager" position even. the whole time i have worked there, i have never really asked for anything from her. except to be off like an hour early once or twice. im thinking, if i were in her position as a boss i wouldnt have any problem letting me go for a day extra than planed to go have some fun at a punk rock show in anehiem. thats just me though.

would i be pushing it, if i asked for friday off as well as the whole next week that i already have off? hmm...

i got the pink slip for my car today in the mail. woo hoo! its mine... all mine...

im pretty much in love with the guy who works down at java jungle. Lord, he's cute. i like his personality too... all quiet and sort of sedated. not all loud and crude like certain other guys ive been hanging around with named chris. ;)

dreamcatcher comes out on friday. i think im going to go see it... the only problem is that i only have 5 dollars... and i need to put it into gasoline... hrmm... well damn. forget the movie i guess.

charlie's not going to mexico with us because he's going to L.A. to be the easter bunny. face.

i signed on MSN messenger today for the first time in several months, and it sucked so i signed off.

im adicted to cheeze-its. not the regular kind. the cheddar jack kind. i just cant stop eating the damn things.

so, with all that said, im going to get the money order ready to mail to providian and then im going to clean my desk off. horray for today.

last night i was flipping through the channle giude and ran across the movie "jeepers creepers". i was just thinking of that movie on friday, and how i was going to rent it again, so i began watching it. if you have never seen "jeepers creepers", then you probably wouldnt know that it is one of the most freakiest movies of all time (at least in my book 'O freaky movies...). as i was watching it, about half way through the movie, i got this sneaky suspicion that i would get nightmares if'n i kept on watching it untill the end (theres this really disturbing scene at the very end of the movie...) so i turned it off and went to bed. but of course, i got nightmares anyway. not really nightmares, persay, but not a very comforting sleep. thats what i get for watching freaky movies before bed time.

the bourne identity was a pretty damn borning movie, just to let you know. it was a wussy spy/government agent movie with bad actors and a not so good script. i predict that pirates of the carribean will be the best movie of all time. horray. Lord, i want to be a pirate...

happy sunday everyone. its a real shame that its all nice and sunny outside. icky california weather. if'n i wasnt so lazy i would move to washington. chris says i would like seattle. i dont doubt that. seattle is, in fact, the destination of one of my many road trips coming up in the future. thanks Jesus, that my cars in good working order again.

peace be in your hearts...

preciouse coffee.

finally.

test...

please bear with me while i perfect this stupid design... its not going to smoothly because of my lack of time. ah well.