here are two more reasons i like isaiah that i just thought of.......

1:: he wears a really cool black ibanez hat
2:: he wears a really cool black soft jacket thats really cool.

:)

earings, earings, earings....... whats up with that? do guys like earings or not??? i mean, come on. one guy says my ears are cute, another guy says he doesnt like my earings (i have 13 in case you were wondering......). but seriously, do guys like earing or not? someone let me know, please. im confused now. sheesh.

today was an awesome day. all grey and cloudy and overcast. it was awesome. i had a pretty good day too. i just sort of ignored all my stupid problems and tried to enjoy the *quality* of the day itself without cramming my brain with stuff. it worked pretty well. i dont think i can hold that off for too long though. especially if isaiah keeps writting poems that make me cry.

give me a break..... i was all looking forward to our little beach trip. i was like, "yay! we are going to the beach!" and i was all like, "cool. isaiah is going. this is going to be fun." and guess what, my friends? today, i find out zay ISNT going. whats up with that?!? first, he isnt going to magic mountain (wich just happens to be the bestest place on earth) and NOW he isnt going to the beach with us? whats up with that, zay? what did i do to you? all i ever did was love you! heres a list of why i like isaiah.....

1:: he has sideburns
2:: he builds cool web pages
3:: he talks a lot
4:: he makes me laugh
5:: he writes really good poems
6:: he cant win
7:: he can take a joke
8:: he never gets mad even though everyone makes fun of him all the freakin time
9:: he is most always home when i come over to vist
10:: he is cool
11:: he plays the guitar

there you go. there you go isaiah. i even add links to your web site. and i sent you e-cards. isaiah is cool.

everyone should download the new Cure song called "cut here". its the best. its not even released yet i think. horray for the cure!

max payne is still staring at me......

by the way, big thanks to everyone who has signed my guest book since i put it up. all *three* of you anyway. oh wow.

as you can see, im in a particulary(sp?) nasty mood. dont mess with me. check it.

watch out april.... here it comes again. that same old thing coming on wanting to eat you...... watch out.......

it was another beautiful day. church this morning was awesome. its amazing how God talks to me even when im being a snot and when i really dont want to hear what He has to say to me. God really spoke to me this morning. thats how i can tell that the same old thing is going to come again.... satan always attacks when you are right with God. i have to remember these things...

1:: say good morning to God
2:: thank God for another beautiful day (even if you dont think its going to be beautiful. its beautiful to God. he created it.)
3:: give my day to God
4:: talk to God a lot

so far my *plan* has been working out relativly well. i spend a lot of time working in the garden outside and i spend even more time on my art. also i spend a lot of time over at isaiah's house. keeping busy is the key and so far, so good.

this is going to be a busy week! on tuesday is the five iron frenzy concert up in fresno (*horray for concerts!*). wednesday is the harvest party thingy at joels house. im still deciting weither or not i should go. i just dont know. its one of those things. anyway, saturday we are going to the coast. woo hoo! and there is only like, 5 more weeks of school left. its all good, its all good.......

check it..... we watched the patriot today. it was pretty good. we watched Carrie the other night. it was kind of dumb. heh.

by the way, everyone should look at heathers web site. its cool.

there is a picture of max payne staring at me right now.......

woooooooo hoo! today is a *beautiful* day.

heh.

some things are better left unsaid.......

i got lost today for a little while. i found my way back, unfortunatly. sometimes i think it might be nice to get lost and not be able to find your way back home for a really, really long time.

having a car and a drivers lisence is really cool. especially having your own car with a full tank of gas is really cool.

im feeling a little crappy today, but its all good.

well, DAMN.

well, damn.

i found the coolest grateful dead sticker the other day...... im drawing it for one of my school assignments..... you see, we have to draw feathers and i thought that would be really boring untill i saw this. i told my mom i liked it beucase it looks like a happy skull. doesnt it?

awwwwww...... its cute.

update }:: im designing a new look for my page i think..... just as soon as i can get to a scanner.....
i also just added blogback... not sure about it yet though. i dont know how it works. hrm.....

surfing the net is getting really boring.

life really shouldnt be this hard.....

i mean, it just really shouldnt be. i narrowed my problems down to a few simple things. no wait, they arent simple becuase if they were simple then i could easily deal with them and then i wouldnt have any problems anymore. so you see, my problems are not simple. but in a way, they are. but in another way, a very different way, they are very complex and hard to deal with.

the thing is, i know the answer to everything that im "dealing" with right now..... it all comes down to one thing..... it all comes down to one little thing..... but its going to take a lot of work..... and a lot of time.....

*laughing* :) :) :)

this is one of those *moments* when absolutly nothing could go wrong. life is beautiful right now. it just is perfect. i absolutly love this.

*laughing*

~april

ok.
woooooo hooooooooooo!

~april

Get Blogback...
April, get blog-back. I highly recommend it. -Zay out

"ive got to admitt its getting better, getting better all the time........."

woooo hooooooooooooooooooooo!

yeah.

~april

sling blade is a really good movie. everyone should watch it. im going to watch it again later.
im also adding it to joels movie list.

joel is cool.

~april

today is going to be a good day.

its the little things. you know.....

gladiator was not all that good of a movie. the best part was the directing. the rest of it was just sad the whole way through. i guess it was alright, but just not as good as everyone made it out to be. i liked braveheart better. i think i liked it better becuase it took place outside and there were trees and rain and stuff, but gladiator seemed to be all one color, you know? hrm......

dangit.

~april

woo hoo! today is a good day.

heh.....

~april

"i fell fine enough i guess
considering everythings a mess....."

i had a much needed talk with God tonight and i realized that i still have no idea as to whats going on. i havnt a clue. and i dont know what to do. i am trying to keep busy though. i know God is going to take care of this stuff. i have this peace way deep down inside of me. im not sure if anything is going to change, but i have this peace way down deep inside of me. but im not sure anything is going to change. maybe it will, but it might take a while. or a long time. i really just dont know whats going on here.

i almost feel lost.

~april

i have decited to have a "bloody movie marathon". why? i'm not sure yet.....

list of movies.....
::{ last of the mohicans }::
::{ braveheart }::
::{ gladiator }::
::{ patriot }::

hrm..... yeah.

~april

5 days untill the weekend.......
11 weeks or 53 days left of school......
getting closer to the end........

~april