well yesterday i did one of the most difficul things i have ever done in my entire life. it wasnt even that it was difficult, it was just... weird. not even really scary becuase of that fact that God told me specificly to do it, but i guess *I* made it hard. *I* made myself struggle with the right words. *I* was a little scared. forgive me for my lack of faith, God. its ok. it turned out good. the thing that amazes me is that God already knew it was going to be like that. God already knew, even when i was practicing the words and deciding how it was going to be, God *KNEW* it was going to be exactly like it was. wOw. awesome.

its all good. i still have this incredible sense of peace and joy and faith. more than i have ever had before. im good.

so, there was a plethera of josh's at isaiahs house last night. it was pretty hilarious.

tonight i teach bible study. woo hoo.