its a funny thing to now know where your life is headed... to know thats its headed somewhere, but your not sure where... to live each day not knowing whats going to happen tomorrow, and not planning on whats going to happen tomorrow... hardly even thinking about whats going to happen tomorrow unless someone brings it up. the only thing i know is that i have to be at work at 10:00 and i get off at 7:00. the only thing i know for SURE about tomorrow is that my friend, Jesus, will still be there holding my hand and laughing with me or crying with me by my side.

sometimes i would like to scream and throw things around. sometimes i do throw things around and kick boxes across the kitchen floor. sometimes when im driving i trun the music up and sing at the top of my lungs and pretend that im stevie nicks or sarah mclaughlan or even bob dylan or shannon hoon.

i like to think of my life as an adventure. now knowing whats going to happen to you tomorrow can be scary to some people. its an adventure to me. i let it go. its taken from me, out of my hands, i have no control over it. its a mystery... its an adventure. its a mixture of scary, sad, funny and fun. i like it. im going to keep going.