ive sort of been moping around all week. sort of processing, sort of pms'ing, sort of moping and sort of confrontational, sort of physicly tired. as a lack of verbal venting (as a result of extreme introversion) i havnt been able to get much out of my system. my mom tells me im going to get an ulcer some day becuase of that. other people tell me i will blow my stack or colapse into extreme depression. i doubt if it will ever come to anything like that (although i was kicking boxes around the kitchen yesterday and it felt pretty good ). i have tried extroversion. it doesnt seem to work for me, not my cup 'o tea, if you will. i dont open up to peo[ple unless i really want to or unless they *REALLY* prod me to. im not sure why. i think part of me feels like unless someone tries to prod it out of me, i would be bothering them if i were to share whats on my mind and i really dont want to be a bother to anyone. so, i keep it to myself. sometimes i journal it, but as of late, ive been a little paranoid about journaling certain things that i might want to journal... i just have this dark, lurking feeling that someone who isnt suposed to read it, will. ive never had that feeling before, so now im not sure what to do with it. a lot of times (probably not as often as i should) i will let God in on whats going on ( not that he doesnt already know, but i think he probably wants to hear it from me ).

blah. i just realized that this post isnt really going anywhere but making me a little more moody. so i think i will be done now.