im glad that i am working today. sometimes i get so overwhelmed my my thoughts that i need something to distract me, or else i would be hoplesly moping around all day mulling over things and becoming semi-depressed.

i watched kitty 2 for a few minutes this morning. i thought about how cats are theraputic to me. i really like cats and i think i need them to be around me to survive. they are crafty, always thinking, independant but lovable at times. she let me give her a few pets before she took off on her way. i noticed that she has a slight limp... im not sure if she has had that all along, but today she does. she was at my window last night. bryan put up a screen so she cant come inside anymore, but she was my window anyway, poking around.

sometimes i get upset with myself. upset that i know certain things. upset that i have this ability to feel things and that i somehow know what questions to ask to the right people to find things out. and somehow i always seem to find things out. sometimes i pretend that i dont have this ability. i try to play dumb and naive and try to forget things that i know and try to forget questions i have, to avoid learning. but it never works for long. in spite of myself, i always seem to find the right peopkle to ask the right questions and i find things out.

it wasnt that cold this morning when i woke up, but its getting cold now, so i put on a sweater.