yesterday...
why did God put me on the kitchen staff at such a crucial time? what was he thinking? how could i have known? what should i be thinking?
well, i have been thinking...
God spoke a word to me last night while in the shower. i like to use my shower time to talk to God. its private and warm in the shower... and quiet, usually (i used to keep a radio in the bathroom and listen, but not anymore) well, he spoke a few things to me, but one thing was ownership. tony asked me why i came back to calvin crest this semester and i told him why i was there, but i forgot one. well, no... i didnt forget it... becuase i didnt realize it was a reason... its been circulating in my thoughts since ive been back, in a cloud in the back of my brain... i think i knew it, but not really...
ownership. i remember on the first day at calvin crest last semester, tony was talking to us all around the table at breakfast. he got there early and cooked up some eggs and hashbrowns, but i ate cereal (im not a big breakfast person). we were all sitting around, sharing our names and goals and things like that and when we were finished, tony talked to us about ownership. i remember him saying somethin about how one of their goals for the semester was to see us, the staff, taking ownership over the campus. to have enouh pride in our work, that we would see something that has to be done and do it... he wanted us to know our job so well, that maybe we wouldnt even have to ask our supervisor if we should go ahead and take that extra step to make things better... well something like that... he wanted us to be proud of our work, of our home, as if it was our own.
i never really grasped that all last semester. i hardly thought of it actually. it may have popped up everyonce in a while, but not really. this time around is different... i can feel it all around me... ownership... maybe becuase i have a authority position in the kitchen... but its mine. its what i do. and i want to do the besyt job at it i can do... as if i were the head of the kitchen, not just the crew chied, 3rd in charge... i want to do my job as if i were the supervisor over the whole kitchen... i want to do it good and i want to do it with love. its my job. its my work. its my crew. its my presentation. its my home. its my kitchen.
its my art.
i was born with leadership skills. ive realized that over the years. i was born also, with the desire to make things beautiful. now, those two are overlapping.
so, what do i want? i want what God wants for me. sound cliche? maybe... but its my heart. im not sure why im here, but im going to do the best i can.
sometimes i think about other people my age. in school, married, enganged, with familes and careers... God told me, God TOLD me, i was made for something different. im made for this... this right now... i was made for something different.
why did God put me on the kitchen staff at such a crucial time? what was he thinking? how could i have known? what should i be thinking?
well, i have been thinking...
God spoke a word to me last night while in the shower. i like to use my shower time to talk to God. its private and warm in the shower... and quiet, usually (i used to keep a radio in the bathroom and listen, but not anymore) well, he spoke a few things to me, but one thing was ownership. tony asked me why i came back to calvin crest this semester and i told him why i was there, but i forgot one. well, no... i didnt forget it... becuase i didnt realize it was a reason... its been circulating in my thoughts since ive been back, in a cloud in the back of my brain... i think i knew it, but not really...
ownership. i remember on the first day at calvin crest last semester, tony was talking to us all around the table at breakfast. he got there early and cooked up some eggs and hashbrowns, but i ate cereal (im not a big breakfast person). we were all sitting around, sharing our names and goals and things like that and when we were finished, tony talked to us about ownership. i remember him saying somethin about how one of their goals for the semester was to see us, the staff, taking ownership over the campus. to have enouh pride in our work, that we would see something that has to be done and do it... he wanted us to know our job so well, that maybe we wouldnt even have to ask our supervisor if we should go ahead and take that extra step to make things better... well something like that... he wanted us to be proud of our work, of our home, as if it was our own.
i never really grasped that all last semester. i hardly thought of it actually. it may have popped up everyonce in a while, but not really. this time around is different... i can feel it all around me... ownership... maybe becuase i have a authority position in the kitchen... but its mine. its what i do. and i want to do the besyt job at it i can do... as if i were the head of the kitchen, not just the crew chied, 3rd in charge... i want to do my job as if i were the supervisor over the whole kitchen... i want to do it good and i want to do it with love. its my job. its my work. its my crew. its my presentation. its my home. its my kitchen.
its my art.
i was born with leadership skills. ive realized that over the years. i was born also, with the desire to make things beautiful. now, those two are overlapping.
so, what do i want? i want what God wants for me. sound cliche? maybe... but its my heart. im not sure why im here, but im going to do the best i can.
sometimes i think about other people my age. in school, married, enganged, with familes and careers... God told me, God TOLD me, i was made for something different. im made for this... this right now... i was made for something different.
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