my first semester at c.o.s. i spent a lot of time writing in a notebook i had. a sort journal i guess. i spent a lot of time out in the quad writing and asking God questions and stuff. i think i grew quite a bit from writing that stuff down... i came across that particular notebook tonight while i was cleaning out a desk drawer. i spent some time flipping through it and i came across a entry that kind of struck me. i was asking God a lot of questions during this time, and this was just one question that i asked him... i never got an answer...
"if jesus experienced lonliness, and jesus is god and god never sins, would me being lonely be a sin? i wonder if this is just one of those questions that will never be answered untill i get home... Psalm 22:1-2 my god, why have you forsaken me? why are you so far from saving me? so far from the words of my groaning? o my god, i cry out by day, but you do not answer, by night and am not silent..."
i dont really want you guys to reply to that part of the post. thats not why i posted it. im not looking for answers from you.
so, im in the process of another design update for this page. im working on a little drawing and some other design things. hopefully it will be up and running soon.
tonight, i figured the building cost of my new 12x16 foot room is going to be $1008.00. thats just the building cost alone... i also have to get electric wiring, building permits and all kinds of other crap. i might just build it 10x10 so the cost will be lower... i dont know yet. its still a new thought, im still figuring it all out.
i was looking through some old art and sketches tonight also, and i wondered if joel still has those pieces i drew for him up on his wall... just kind of a random thought. doesnt really matter i guess. actually, it does matter. everything matters.
" and then, oddly enough, the first symptoms of true love in a young man is timidity, in a young woman, boldness. this is suprising, and yet nothing is more natural. it is the two sexes tending to unite, and each aquiring the qualities of the other." ~ Victor Hugo from his book Les Miserables.
maybe thats why my hippie/grunge/punk/cowboy hasnt asked me out yet. he is madly in love with me, therefor he is being timid.
wussy boys.
"if jesus experienced lonliness, and jesus is god and god never sins, would me being lonely be a sin? i wonder if this is just one of those questions that will never be answered untill i get home... Psalm 22:1-2 my god, why have you forsaken me? why are you so far from saving me? so far from the words of my groaning? o my god, i cry out by day, but you do not answer, by night and am not silent..."
i dont really want you guys to reply to that part of the post. thats not why i posted it. im not looking for answers from you.
so, im in the process of another design update for this page. im working on a little drawing and some other design things. hopefully it will be up and running soon.
tonight, i figured the building cost of my new 12x16 foot room is going to be $1008.00. thats just the building cost alone... i also have to get electric wiring, building permits and all kinds of other crap. i might just build it 10x10 so the cost will be lower... i dont know yet. its still a new thought, im still figuring it all out.
i was looking through some old art and sketches tonight also, and i wondered if joel still has those pieces i drew for him up on his wall... just kind of a random thought. doesnt really matter i guess. actually, it does matter. everything matters.
" and then, oddly enough, the first symptoms of true love in a young man is timidity, in a young woman, boldness. this is suprising, and yet nothing is more natural. it is the two sexes tending to unite, and each aquiring the qualities of the other." ~ Victor Hugo from his book Les Miserables.
maybe thats why my hippie/grunge/punk/cowboy hasnt asked me out yet. he is madly in love with me, therefor he is being timid.
wussy boys.
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