damn stupid dreams about joel for the past three nights in a row. what the hell is up with that? get out of my mind, NOW.

so, me and my friend Apathy, are going to be hanging out for the christmas break. we dont have to go back to work untill next monday (thanks God...) so we get to sit around here at home and do nothing. ahhh sweet sleep. perhaps i'll work on some art. i have some images running through my mind that i really should sketch down and stuff.

weirdest thing, yesterday my heart hurt. no joke. my heart. i mean, it wasnt an unbearable hurt, but it was just a little pain. and it might not have even been my heart. it could have been my lungs or something. but dont be suprised if'n i end up in the histpital some time soon having some kind of open heart surgery or something. i swear, thats whats going to happen. i think as long as they have me open, i'll have some other stuff taken out too.just for the heck of it... like my tonsils or one of my kidneys or something. something i could do without. then, i could do one of two things with my kidney. i could donate it to some kidney donation thingy, or i could put it in a jar and set it on the shelf above my desk. or, even worse, i could put it in a jar and tie a bright red ribbon around it and mail to an enemy of mine with a little note that says "YOU".

god. thats horrible. heh... as if any of that would really happen.

welp, Apathy and i are going to clean my room now.