today i saw a vulture as i was driving home after work. it was just sitting there on a stump in a cow pasture near my home. a vulture...

i have been doing a lot of examining of my heart, and im definatly tired of the person i was and im glad for the changes being made in me. i only hope that the changes are showing through and its not just some big thing im making up in my head... telling myself ive changed and that im different... telling myself that im not the same as i was a couple of months ago... i hope that its not just in my head.

today was exhausting. thank you Jesus, that its almost over. i supose that my lack of sleep last night might of had something to do with today being the way it was. my head was spinning with thoughts of the past weekend, pulled heart strings, crushes in my head, drawings to express myself, writings to share how i feel, no one to share them with... tylonol pm finally put me to sleep.

i love living in the country. i love it. i love living in the midst of orange groves and lemon groves. i love that there are cow pastures close by. i love that everyday i get to drive away from visalia, where i work, and go home to the country.

happy birthday charlie. i love you. :)