once upon a time there was a boy. the boy used to have an awesome set of values and goals and morals. there was nothing that could shake the boy of the things that he profesed to believe in. the boy studied books and listened to tapes and sought Gods wisdom on one subject in particular - the subject of dating and/or courtship. i used to admire this boys convictions and i had a deep respect for him because of them.

now, nothing makes sense. the boy goes against many of the things that he told me he belived in. he goes against many of the things that he used to strive to live his life by. has he sold out, so to speak? has he given in to comformity of the dating/courtship game? part of me wants to belive he has not... still, part of me believes that he has.

the lack of communication hurts. the failure to introduce me to his friend came off as rudeness and ignorance.

i still find myself thinking the world of this boy. i dont think i will ever stop, even in my anger, confusion and frustration, i love him. some things will never change.

some things will never change, but i guess what he used to live by did change. and it makes me sad.