just becuase i have more crappy days than other people might have, or i think of my days as crappy more than most people do, doesnt mean im not a happy person, and it doesnt mean i dont have joy in my life and it really doesnt mean that i dont love Jesus and it definatly doesnt mean that Jesus doesnt love me. if i didnt vent a little bit from time to time and let some stuff out then i would get an ulcer, im sure of it. please forgive me for the way i vent my feelings if they are a problem to you. you can simply igonore me, or you can let me know you are there for me and that you care, or you can tell me to get over it and get a life or you can quietly say a little prayer for me. whatever. just let me have my rant.

im dealing with this. i know whats going on and i have faith and trust in God that He has this whole thing under control. you have no idea.