the phone is right next to my bed upstairs. i think it is the only working phone in this whole house, becuase yesterday i tried every phone but that one and none of them seemed to work any. so, it began to ring last night, probably close to 9:30... i had been in bed almost asleep, listening to my CD of "songs that put me to sleep" (one of the best compilations i have put together, ever...) and so i just sort of shoved it off of the window sill. it kept ringing, so i fumbled around in the dark and in my sleepyness, and managed to un-plug the phone from the wall. so, if your wondering why your call wasnt answered last night, its becuase i was mostly asleep.

the last few nights i have been using tylonol pm to lull me to sleep... just untill i get used to falling asleep in a totally quiet room, and they have left me with some strange dreams... dreams that cause me to once again question, do our dreams mean anything? do certain dreams mean something and if only certain dreams have meaning, how do we pick and choose wich ones they are? and maybe none of my current dreams have any meaning, becuase they are a result of tylonol PM... or maybe they do have a even deeper meaning than ususal becuase the drugs have awakened my unconciouse thoughts and maybe the uncanny ability to see into my future...

perhaps i should just let that alone and trust it all to Jesus... too complicated for my simplistic little mind.

yesterday i put the chains on my tires on the calvin crest road and parked head out in the little parking place, just in case i should ever happen to suddenly speed out of here, i will be all set...

living in the snow is really different... its beautiful when i take the time off from watching my shuffeling feet, concentrating on keeping my balance, too look up... snow flakes fall on my eye lashes and my nose gets cold... the trees are beautiful covered in snow... im grateful that i am having this experience...

things are turning out better than my limited, pessimistic mind had once thought they would... just more proof that Jesus is much bigger than i am and his majesty is displayed when i allow it.

peace be in your hearts...