once upon a time there was a girl. much like the boy i knew she too used to have an awesome set of values and goals and morals. this girl sought after Gods wisdom on one subject in particular - the subject of dating and/or courtship. she read books on the subject and discuss what she believed in. she lived her life according the the conviction that God had set upon her heart concerning such matters. her life was a relection of gentlesness, kindness, compassion and faithfulness to her family.

then one day, in the blink of an eye, everything changed.

still, no one knows what happened. often times i think about the manner in wich she spoke of a particular boy and how now, she blantently lies to my face, denying that she ever said such things about him. continuously she lies for him and makes excused for him. claiming it as a godly relationship, i dont understand how so many things about it contradict godly relationships in the bible.

with all of my heart, i want it to be done with. i want her to be strong enough to step outside of herself and see whats going on. i want her to be strong enought to recognize the hurt that so many she used to be close with, now feel. i want her to be strong enought to realize the damage done and try to, for once in her life, try to fix it with the sincerest of intention.

most of all i want her to realize how much more she deserves than what she is allowing for herself right now. how much more God has in store for her if she were just strong enough to accept it.

its so hard to be optimistic when you are a cynic. clinging to faith is all i have.