"i think your going to miss us."
"i am. i already miss you guys."
"aww. now im feeling all emo..."

what an emotionally exhausting week.now im the one feeling all emo and i just want to curl up in my bed and sleep through all of tomorrow and then on untill God knows when. im so tired. its also been physicly exhausting. what with us being 2 people short handed at work making for double the work for abby and i, i am wore out. going to bed before 10:00 everynight so far has helped a bit, but still. blah.

yes, im dropping my class. why? becuase of whatever asshole decited to raise tuition fee's at c.o.s. not to metion the asshole who decited to make the required text book $80.00. thanks alot guys. thanks for making it difficult for a young, inspired, willing girl to become educated and better skilled at ways to improve her life and the lives of others around her. way to go. im sorry, i just cant afford $135 dollars on a class right now at this point in time when i dont even really like school to begin with. whatever. im slightly upset about it, but remaining semi-apathetic, thinking of saving money to take the class next sememster. planning ahead is good sometimes...

speaking of apathetic, im loosing my apathy more and more. i supose thats a good thing. but it just seems like lately im taking things more personal and letting things get to me and taking offense at a lot of things and a lot of things said by people towards me or towards other people make me really sad. im just sad about things said and done. maybe i really am emo. dammit. :(

or maybe im just becoming more compassionate, growing closer to Christ... maybe...

tomorrow im driving to calvin crest. yippie. part of me doesnt want to go. but the part of me that doesnt want to go is the part of me that knows that there will be no sleeping in this weekend sin ce i'll be up there. and i know that thats a pretty lame part of me, so im sucking it up and heading up there tomorrow with my highschoolers for a weekend of... fun?

*sigh*

last night everyone left to go to church and i was left at home by myself. so me and my emo-self got all comfy-cozy in my pajamas, took my nightly dose of calcium, made myself some bija sleep-well tea, turned off all the lights except for two small ones in the living room, and turned on the fellowship of the rings. i shed a few tears at the more beautiful scenes and my heart was warmed by the friend relationship between frodo and sam. speaking of frodo and sam, im tired of all the jokes and comments being made against there friendship, acusing them of being so "gay" and whatever. i think people should use frodo and sams friendship as an example of how friendships should be. commited, loving, pure, genuine, honest and adventurous.

speaking of friends, juanita still kicks ass and vanessa, sorry i couldnt hang out on monday and thanks for leaving comments on my web site. i really want to hang out with you and julia soon.

so, in an attempt to make my life a little more amusing (mostly to myself becuase i know that all of you already find my life extremely amusing) i have decited to more often add illustrations. such as the one below taking place in the fabric/pattern department of the wal*mart.

and will my little plan be executed tomorrow afternoon? will i have the time, between getting off of work and heading up to calvin crest? will i have the opourtunity or even the guts for that matter? we shall see...


and she thought to herself, that wasnt nearly enough time...