yesterday afternoon i had a plan. it was a genious plan and i was going to carry it out at the tazzeria when i went in to get the chamomile tea. the set up was prefection... i walked in, he came out. he asked how i was doing, i replied and mentioned what a beautiful day it was outside. he said something or the other and that was about it. what happened to my plan? flusteration set in. my plan was forgotten. i got my tea, walked out the door and drove home, only to remember the plan in great disapointment half way home. ahh well. i suppose there is always today...

speaking of today, its my first day of school. its my first day. for the first time in two years i am taking a class. im nervous and aprehensive. i hate school, i hate it. but i needed to do something with my life other than work and all that other stuff i do. i need to stimulate my mind and learn something new, so signed up. i figured, what the hell? maybe you could say a little prayer for me, as i really dont like school at all. even if the class is just a cooking class (introduction to professional cooking), it is still a CLASS and its at c.o.s., the place where all your dreams break apart in a million tiny pieces and depression sets in while walking amung the campus while you should be in a class, wondering what the hell you are doing there... but anyway... prayer is good...

last night was the best. i brushed my teeth and braided my hair. i also got some heart felt advice that stuck to me and maybe you should know that your concern/thought has effected me and that i can still hear your voice in my head and the love behind the simple things said to me. even if it was just little things mentioned throughout our time milling about the wal*mart and taco bell, i am thourouly (sp?) convinced that you guys are truly two of the most dear boys that will ever walk the face of this earth and i am blessed because of you. i will miss you while you are in texas. but i still have juanita, my girlfriend. :)