every morning of the week... 30 minutes to wake my body up, 30 minutes to drink my coffee, 30 mintues to get ready to go and 30 minutes for the long drive into town. and every morning as im sitting in bed waking my body up, i give myself a little pep talk that goes something like this (according to what day of the week it is...) " its tuesday... that means tomorrow is wendesay wich means the next day is thrusday, wich means the NEXT day is friday, meaning the weekend and i get to sleep as late as i want on saturday... " then i get out of bed for my coffee.

and now im sitting here with my coffee, looking forward to this day with great anticipation.

what do i have to anticipate? nothing really. and im actually not looking forward to the day with great anticipation. but, maybe God will suprise me today. i remember a while back, before all the shit, i would ask God everymorning to suprise me with something during the day. i asked him to help me to keep my eyes open and my heart open and i asked him to suprise me. and he never failed. for about two weeks He suprised me everyday. not big suprises, mostly little observational suprises. and if i remember right, one horrible suprise. but it was a suprise non the less. maybe i should try that again. its fun... maybe you should try it too...