and i just got back from mexico yesterday. what a blessing. i started out wondering why i was even going, becuase i kind of sort of felt a little pushed into it... its like everyone just assumed that i wanted to go becuase i had gone past years and because it was my youth group ministry... whatever. i mean, its not that i didnt want to go, i just didnt even think about it really.

so anyway, i told God how i felt and asked him to change my heart and as a result i recieved some true blessings. i saw several of the mexican people blessed and i saw several heart changes in my high schoolers, wich was one of the most awesomest blessings for me... i feel closer to God, and i feel closer to my kids... i dont know... i dont really know how to explain what i feel...

i heard that this web site will no longer be in a few more days. i supose this may just be my last post... would have been nice if someone had sent me an e-mail warning me about that. whatever.

i had this horrible dream, last night that my friend travis s. came to my house unexpectidly to tell me that he had been thinking about christianity and talking to a few friends about it and that he had decided that it just wasnt for him and that he really didnt need Jesus. when i began to tell him what i thought about that he interupted me and told me not to bother, his mind was made up and then he started walking away and i think he was even running from me. i just stood there watching him leave... i think i was crying... the dream woke me up and i said a little prayer for him.

peace...