and so, last night God pretty much told me that its not all about me. its about other people. God put the word "precious" into my heart and mind. you see, i was putting together this little lesson for my high schoolers (the ones who didnt show up) and i was looking through the Peretti book "a wounded spirit" where he says something to the effect of...
"the message a bully sends is a mockery of Gods handiwork, a lie that slanders Gods nature and negates his love for us."
how could someone mock the creators own handiwork? how could we be-little and put down other people, when all we are doing is mockinf GODS HANDIWORK. and arent you and I Gods handiwork? didnt God create you and i? didnt he create us exactly how he wanted to? does God make mistakes? no. so, when he created you and i and other people, and he created us with our funny little "quirks" that cause us to put eachother down, was he making a mistake? DID GOD MAKE A MISTAKE WHEN HE MADE YOU THE WAY HE DID? NO. GOD DOES NOT MAKE MISTAKES. when you think of it that way it kind of gets to you, huh... mocking Gods own handiwork... think about it...

so, God put the word precious into my heart. he told me that other people are precious. they are precious to him and they should be precious to me, since in my christian walk i should be striving to be more christ-like. Lord, help me to view other people as precious, so as that i may serve them better.

its not all about me. its all about God and then other people.

in other news (for those of you who DO care about me)... im doing somewhat better. kind of. sort of. ok, not really... but im trying to trust God. im trying to make him #1 priority in my life. im trying to remember that even though SOME PEOPLE may not love me, He does. and he always will. thanks for loving me, Jesus...