there goes my insperation. all gone again. im still mulling over stuff in my brain and i can think of more things that probably need to be said, but i cant say them, just becuase.

im really, really ready for school to be done. i told joel the other night that this has been the semester from hell and i was very serious about that. im really not going back next semester, except for my one art class. geeze. all i want to do is get married and have some kids. not that simple though, thanks to how screwed up the world is now-a-days. theres all these things that i "have" to do first and all these things that my guy "has" to do before we can hook up. its screwed. seriously. it could be simple, but its really complexed. i wonder if this is how God wants it....

i wonder that about a lot of things....

i guess it will take me a few kore days to finally come to a conclusion about stuff. untill then, i sit here and mull. and i dedicate this song to a boy.....

"one" by U2

Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same
Will it make it easier on you now
You got someone to blame
You say...
One love
One life
When it's one need
In the night
One love
We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don't care for it

Did I disappoint you
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well it's...

Too late
Tonight
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One...

Have you come here for forgiveness
Have you come tor raise the dead
Have you come here to play Jesus
To the lepers in your head

Did I ask too much
More than a lot
You gave me nothing
Now it's all I got
We're one
But we're not the same
Well we
Hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt

One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should
One life
With each other
Sisters
Brothers
One life
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other

One... life

One

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on a happier note, this month is free U2 month on direct tv and i get all kinds of neat U2 programs. videos and concerts and stuff. its been pretty cool. check it if you have direct tv.

hm. thats it.