wooooooooooooo hooooooooooooooo

yeah. hmm..... i dont think this is finished yet though..... somehow i dont think it will ever be finished.... ever..... hmm.....

i am newly inspired. i have a new outlook on things. its the same, but its different in a way. in a good way i think..... i havnt really had the time to think it over yet. it will probably catch up to me in a couple days after i have had some time to mull over it. i dont process things very quickly and they take a while to catch up before i realize whats going on. i think i got that character traite from my brother and i think its something that a lot of guys do. im not a guy though. but i am greatly influenced by my brother, so i think i got that from him. -wait? what happened? well, we'll see how things go from here. basicly, he just confirmed what i already knew. i just needed to hear it from him though.

this song pretty much sums up a good friendship i think..... the kind where you can be comfortable just sitting there doing nothing. the kind of friendship we had all summer, where we could just be together and not worry about trying to entertain eachother becuase we were afraid of being bored. i think that in the best friendships, you dont have to be afraid of someone being bored while you are there. you should just be happy to be together. to just sit there and be together, not even saying anything or worrying about having nothing to say. just to sit there and be together. we'll see i guess.

"the loudest sound" by the cure (who else? :)

"Side by side in silcence they pass way the day
So comfortable, so habitual...and so nothing left to say
Nothing left to say
Nothing left to say
Side by side in silence his thoughts echo round
He looks upa t the sky...she looks down at the ground
Stares down at the ground
Stares down at the ground
Side by side in silence they wish for different worlds
She dreams him as a boy...he loves her as a girl
Loves her as a girl...

And side by side in silence without a single word...
It's the loudest sound
It's the loudest sound...
It's loudest sound I ever heard"

thats about it. heart felt blog today. i dont think its over though.....