lets see..... i had to be at school at 8:00 this morning (as aposed to 10:00) to take a health and wellness test. i didnt study at all (as usual), but i think i might have done ok. we'll see.

today is a beautiful day. the sky is beautiful. if it wasnt for all this crap inside of me, it would be a perfect day. there is something about waking up early in the morning and being alone for a while that makes you feel prewtty cynical. also, maybe i feel cynical just becuase im a cynical sort of person. who knows.

sometimes God tells me the funniest things. i was just talking to him the other day for a long time and he is just really funny sometimes. i mean, its only funny when i think about it in that certain way, other wise its very seriouse. God is cool becuase he never lies, he is always honest about what he says to you. but sometimes i think its hard to tell if it was reallly God who told me that, or maybe if it was just me telling myself things becuase thats what i want to hear. i really dont know sometimes.

sheesh. today is one of those days. greg and i like to call them "hell-of-a-bad days".

i wonder whats wrong with me.

maybe i should ask God.

~april