note to self: find out where you stand. find out where *exactly* you are at and do it soon.....or else you might just be screwed.....

i do NOT want to go to school next week. school starts the 15th. i just dont know what im doing there. i know why God wants me there, but what good is it doing me? i hate school! i was wondering today, after talking with joel, about why God didnt make me more of a sappy girl. the kind who cares about going to school and getting a really good education and persuing something really big like that. sometimes i just do not like being me. right now i do not like being me.

sometimes its good to cry. just let it out.

~april