i feel like a mom...
i run a hot sink full of soapy water and stroll around the house collecting dirty dishes. i second check, leaving only bed rooms un-touched on my hunt for the dishes no one washes. i rinse grime them, dump out leftover coffee and tea and carefully scrub, paying close attnetion to the rims of cups and the bowls of spoons.
i semui-grugingly wash all the dishes i have found, slightyly complaining in my head about the mess and how easy it qwould be for everyone to just wash their own dish when they are finished using it... a simple concept of consideration for others...
but the gruge is slight becuase i remmber not washing my fair of dishes not long ago...
i rinse the last dish and wipe down all the counters as the sink drains. i take out the recycles and the trash, about to overflow, and seem to be aware of all of my motions as i replace the liners and put the clean dishes away.
i pour myself another cup of coffee and wonder, whats happened to me? where is this stuff coming from? i try to tell myself i am just makinf up for all the chores i have brushed off in the past, but somehow i dont think that is true... why havnt i cared like this before? what was stopping me?
sometimes there is no explanation to why i didnt do what i didnt do... there is no excuse and no answer...
tony says he doesnt want this place to be my salvation, but rather a springboard for the rest of my life... i agree with that, it would be impossible for this place to be my salvation anyway, only Christ can be that, but this is a definite springboard...
but it cant just be this place that is a springboard, it has to be Jesus... and not just this time, right now, but everyday no matter where i am... i want today to be a springboard for tomorrow and i want tomorrow to be a springboard for the next day and so on...
i have changed. the only explanation for that change is Jesus activly working in my life, and this being the right timming.
i cant make up for the things i didnt do in the past. i can only move forward and be active in this new life...
i run a hot sink full of soapy water and stroll around the house collecting dirty dishes. i second check, leaving only bed rooms un-touched on my hunt for the dishes no one washes. i rinse grime them, dump out leftover coffee and tea and carefully scrub, paying close attnetion to the rims of cups and the bowls of spoons.
i semui-grugingly wash all the dishes i have found, slightyly complaining in my head about the mess and how easy it qwould be for everyone to just wash their own dish when they are finished using it... a simple concept of consideration for others...
but the gruge is slight becuase i remmber not washing my fair of dishes not long ago...
i rinse the last dish and wipe down all the counters as the sink drains. i take out the recycles and the trash, about to overflow, and seem to be aware of all of my motions as i replace the liners and put the clean dishes away.
i pour myself another cup of coffee and wonder, whats happened to me? where is this stuff coming from? i try to tell myself i am just makinf up for all the chores i have brushed off in the past, but somehow i dont think that is true... why havnt i cared like this before? what was stopping me?
sometimes there is no explanation to why i didnt do what i didnt do... there is no excuse and no answer...
tony says he doesnt want this place to be my salvation, but rather a springboard for the rest of my life... i agree with that, it would be impossible for this place to be my salvation anyway, only Christ can be that, but this is a definite springboard...
but it cant just be this place that is a springboard, it has to be Jesus... and not just this time, right now, but everyday no matter where i am... i want today to be a springboard for tomorrow and i want tomorrow to be a springboard for the next day and so on...
i have changed. the only explanation for that change is Jesus activly working in my life, and this being the right timming.
i cant make up for the things i didnt do in the past. i can only move forward and be active in this new life...
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