some people are discusting, others i cant get enough of. what makes them discusting to me though? what makes our minds and thoughts so different that i wouldnt want to be around them? maybe its not right of me to think these things about other people, but its whats honestly running through my head right now... sometimes when i see certain people, i get the urge to turn around and run away and some tinmes i do. sometimes i force myself to stay, to be polite and give them, a chance, but usually i run away. how dare i? what right do i have to feel that way towards other people? do other people feel that way towards me sometimes?
sometimes i dont know how to act. i act akwardly and dont know the things to say to be accepted. i fidget and pace and usually the only thing going through my head is "i have to get away NOW" and since my manners are aparently crap, i tend to avoid social events and make a quick get away when there are more than 3 people in the room (i cant handle 4... its too even...).
i dont like parties. i dont like them at all. too much energy.
sometimes i wonder if i have bad energy...
some people really cant get enough of. some people i absolutly love with all my heart and i love seeing them when they come into a room and when they are around me. i adore certain people, but other people i cant stand.
what right do i have to feel that way?
sometimes i dont know how to act. i act akwardly and dont know the things to say to be accepted. i fidget and pace and usually the only thing going through my head is "i have to get away NOW" and since my manners are aparently crap, i tend to avoid social events and make a quick get away when there are more than 3 people in the room (i cant handle 4... its too even...).
i dont like parties. i dont like them at all. too much energy.
sometimes i wonder if i have bad energy...
some people really cant get enough of. some people i absolutly love with all my heart and i love seeing them when they come into a room and when they are around me. i adore certain people, but other people i cant stand.
what right do i have to feel that way?
posted by april at
11:25 AM
9 Comments:
Of course you have that right. It's God-given!
Danke.......
Haha. No one has that "right". You have the right to make a choice about who you socialize with, but that dosn't mean you have the right to grind someones self esteem in the dirt because somthing about them just "rubs you the wrong way". There are plenty of people I just don't get, and I can't understand them, I don't click with them and I fight saying(and acting) I don't like them all together. I don't even know these people, they are just very different from me. I think that has a lot to do with it. They are different, so different in fact that they just seem out of this world to me. But just because I don't quite get them, and don't quite know where they are coming from dosn't give me the right to make them feel bad about themselves, that is NOT the love of Christ at all. It would make me feel pretty crappy to see someone litterally run away from me or want to get away so bad that they looked like a nervous poodle. The body of Christ is uplifting and unjudgmental. It gently steers a person to truth with loving words and actions. Remember you never know what kind of background someone has come out of. But Satan does, and he knows exatcly what to do to push them over the edge. Whether it be simply NOT having friends or seeing someone that may be a potential friend run away horrified to see you approaching.
Anyway, sorry I didn't mean to start a sermon. I just start running off of a tangent somtimes and can't stop. It's just my take on the situation. :o)
By the way.... I got to see two Cesearian Sections yesterday! I totally gowned up and went into the operating room and watched them cut the women open and pull a baby out of her womb, it was so cool.
Ok... see ya!
Why, exactly, did you delete my comment?
Are you sure its not indegestion your feeling, instead of energy?
I think the whole "energy" concept is completely phsycological. Just as its been proven in the past that an individual can will him/herself into being sick, I think its possible to will one's self into "feeling" vibes, auras, carma, and static energy in the air.
And if you do have bad energy, the only person who can change that is you. So hop to it!
i didnt delete any of your comments.
Then what happened to it!? What a quandary.
My post disappeared too! Oh well Basically it just says I miss you and I think your energy is awesome and I very much enjoy being around you!! Someday soon i can be around you and ben!! hopefully
There is somewhat of an energy to me. I can't explain it, but it's it's subtly there I think.
Danke.....
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