so now im not sure how to respond when people ask me how i am doing... im not well, but at the same time i have a peace about what happened. i think that i cant help but feel not well over this thing, how could i feel anything else? semi-numb, yet not quite apathetic... just unsure, but sure of the fact that i am not well over this... but, there is peace... peace in my heart and peace over this place... its all over the air and in the faces of other people... and a freedom...

its a strange feeling. i feel strange. un-well, but well at the same time... i dont know how else to feel right now. but i think thats ok.