last night i dreamed that one of the guys who i hang out with sometimes downtown, an awesome artist and an encouragment to me in my art, really *really* liked me... but i didnt find out how much untill i read about it on his blog. only, his blog wasnt a computer blog... it was written on a bag of loose leafe spinach that i just happened to buy at the grocery store one evening...

so, i have this annoyance towards people who constantly have to have other people holding their hands... not literally, but metaphoricly... like, they always have to have other people doing things for them becuase they cant do it themselves... but the thing is... its not really the fact that they cant do anything for themselves, its the ones that deny it who really bug me... its ok if you just admitt that you need help, but when you get all defensive and deny it (lie about it) that really bugs.

Jesus, help me to be more tolerant...

sunday was a day filled with heart warming experiences... first of all, i had an awesome conversation with a girl who i pre-judged wrongly, just becuase i knew her years ago and she tried to trip up a christian friend of mine... she has changed and her heart for God is huge now... she is getting married in just a couple of weeks (she is only 19, bless her heart...) and she was telling me about her engagment and what she belives about marriage and pre-marriage... and her maturaty was astounding. the part that blew me away was how she met her fiance because he was her brothers best friend... but before he began to date her or marry her, he went and asked for her fathers permission and her brothers permission... how awesome is that? God wants to build up families and relationships by marriage, and this girl and her finace are being obediant to Gods will and word... he will really bless them in a big way... im excited for her...

the second heart warmer on sunday was going to youth group for the first time in months... having to work super early sunday mornings, im usually pretty exauhsted on sunday nights, so i just stay home and watch extreme makeover home edition and go to bed... but i really wanted to see the kids before i left... and im so glad i did... i love those kids so much and they are such a blessing to me... they have been my life up untill august when i started going to school and working so much... i think i had forgotten that. i dont know how i could have though... how could i have forgotten that? i miss them... i cant wait untill snow-go when they will be up at camp... i cant wait to see them again...

i have some more shopping to do... not christmas presents, things that i need like deoderant. i also have three bags to drop off at the goodwill donation center... we will probably go give blood tomorrow... i keep coming across money that i didnt know i had... this is an awesome week...

peace...