so, it'll be two years as of tomorrow. on this special ocassion, i would like to take a little bit of time to say thank you to a very special friend of mine. thank you for being there for me over the past two years. thanks for calling me to see how things were going. i know you had a busy schedule, but i really apreciate the fact that you took out some time on your days off to get together with me for a few hours just to talk and hang out. it really ment a lot to me the way that you were so honest with me about things anf they way that when you felt like i was pushing at our friendship, you let me know. if it werent for you, then im sure we wouldnt still be friends today.

oh, wait. we arent still friends today and you didnt do any of that stuff. huh... and i had been doing just fine untill you so consideratly sent me that damn letter. it was so good of you to send it. and so soon too! i mean, its not like ive been sitting around for the past two years wondering what the hell happened. noooo, not at all! i apreciate your promptness. wait again, not really, beacuse you werent promtp. or considerate. but im so happy for you that you were able to "free yourself".

they are called guts. get some.

wich brings me to one of the reasons that other christians piss me off. its becuase they lie to eachother. i would expect that kind of thing from a non-christian, but not a christian. not someone who i trusted and considered one of my best friends. not someone who i tried so hard to be good too. im sure ive done it too, but at least i realize it and im working on it. being honest. if im doing something to bother you or push you away or if im pissing you off or whatever, just f'ing tell me so i can work on it or at least know the truth...

the truth may hurt at times, but it hurts even more if you candy coat it and put it off for two f'ing years becuase you have no balls to say whats on your heart.

also, im not going to be calling you or writing you or anything like that. i have almost no trust in you and i really dont want to be around you. maybe not ever again. its really up to you though.

lord, i'm pissed. i want to stab someone and push them down on the ground and walk away.

im going to go watch fright night now alone with the lights off and the curtains open becuase i really dont give a damn.

once again, have a nice life. yes, really.