damn. sometimes it just catches up to me for a little bit. i'll be over it tomorrow im sure. untill then, this is dedicated to a boy...

"close to me" a song by the cure
the disappointment of dreams made real.
Frustrated humming with your head under the pillow, like the end of the day where you feel nothing has been achieved and you're in a hurry to get the day over with so you can start the next one. You tell yourself you're going to do lots of positive things. But the next day is just like the one before. Sometimes it goes on for weeks. ~song explenation by robert smith of the cure
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I've waited hours for this
I've made myself so sick
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I never thought that this day would end
I never thought that tonight could ever be
This close to me
Just try to see in the dark
Just try to make it work
To feel the fear before you're here
I make the shapes come much too close
I pull my eyes out
Hold my breath
And wait until I shake

But if I had your faith
Then I could make it safe and clean
If only I was sure
That my head on the door was a dream...